Must Be A Clam In My Past Life

I don’t know what I did in my previous life to deserve meeting these guys but la. I don’t know. /just wanna laugh HAHAHAHAHA

Just happened to rethink, no, to reminisce a little bit of my past. I had my last boyfriend when I was in High School but no one believes me /sob. I had a few in my High School life but none of them are serious enough /wrist. Of course when I entered college, I met quite a handful of guys but la, none of them were good enough for me or some of them were good enough but I’m no good for them. Endless cycle of that even until now. I repeat, I don’t know what I did in my previous life to get to experience this endless cycle of tragedy wtf. Still meeting quite a handful of guys until now la.

There was this Guy, whom I shall name Banana, and I don’t remember how I met him wtf. The only thing I remember about him is while he was about to see me, he got lost, phone batteries died on him, asked helped at the Barangay and did everything he can just to see me. It was the sweetest thing ever and I’m shallow so I think it’s the sweetest thing a guy ever did for me and I liked him for that until he realized I was not good enough for him and left me wtf.

Then there’s this Guy, whom I shall name Blink whom I met accidentally I think it was serendipity /lol. I met him because my friend and his friend, basically our friend introduced us to each other then of course we clicked instantly. We do boyfriend and girlfriend stuff and text each other every day, every hour literally for three months. The best date in my entire life also is with him up until now. But he had the ghost of his ex-girlfriend around him so we didn’t end up with each other because he thought I’m not good enough for him and loves his ex-girlfriend now girlfriend because they’re back into each others arms again. Good for them because they broke up for a long time and now they got back together after that so I think it’s true love. /amazed

Now this Guy, I’m gonna call Superman has the ghost of ex-girlfriend too wtf. But this time I’m Ghostbuster because I tried exterminating the ghost but failed /sob. The ghost is stronger than I thought she would be! So in the end I surrendered because Superman embraced the ghost himself. I deserve him but he doesn’t deserve me because I’m too good for him la. I must also say this, I’m too cute for him la. /sorry for shamelessness /sob /slices wrist ;_; 

I even loved Superman for Lemons sake! But now it’s okay because I moved on la. It was a hard process but it’s better now. /happy lady n_n

Now for future suitors /sorry again for shamelessness ;_; I warn you if you want me, be Ghostbusters too and exterminate those ghost of your ex-girlfriend because I’m too tired dealing with them. I also want true love like Blink! n_n

I don’t hate her, I dislike her with undying burning passion hotter than the fires of hell.

I’m pretty judgmental myself and even though I haven’t seen her in person (Which I don’t ever wanna), I hate every damn thing about her. 

After everything I’ve done for him, understanding him, looking out for him, after all my efforts, it still failed. We failed, I failed. What does she have that I don’t?! What did I lack, what is wrong? What’s in her?

I was there the time she treated him like shit, I was the one who was beside him when she threw him away and then on some random time, on the peak of my happiness, she comes back just like that. And you know what really hurts? He still chose her.

God I despise that woman so much with passion.

Just Because At That Time, I Really Did Tried.

It ended even before it’s just about to start.

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